Lights Off... and all is well.

Sometimes I feel empty.
Emotions escape me,
and suddenly there is:
No Fear
No Pain
No Happiness
Just an incredible sense of freedom.

Feelings non-existent cannot hurt me.
There is a force field around my soul.
It doesn't allow anything, anyone in or out.
Not Family
Not Friends
Not Enemies
I learn that loneliness is now my best friend.

People might think it's craziness that makes one so disconnected.
I would rather be insane and painless
than have complete sanity and become an emotional wreck.

If only it had always been this easy.
It's like having a built in light switch I never knew I had.
I have mastered turning it off,
but every time I turn it back on
I get burned.